Why not exchange?
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Been through a scary biomat quiz but shall not elaborate hahas. always been tempted to do 20 facts about me on insta that people keep tagging me in but whenever i wanted to do i will think its too much of an effort. although i will on and off have some facts about me in my mind. i have a complicated mind lolol. Again i am such a huge procrastinator and recently i realise i dislike inefficiency. Its actually a trait of capricorn and i used to think i dun posses it because i can be inefficient at time. Then i realise, i am just procratinating. My eldest sis also have this intolerant of inefficiency and mine is way mild. Then again i realise i am quite efficient in doing anything but studying D:
Anw so during dinner my friends and i were discussing about going exchange. Perhaps many would be surprise to know that i decided not to embark on one because i think its not worth it. Its definitely worth it for the experience no matter how little AUs i clear or no matter how much it cost. But its not worth it for the distance. Jaz thinks that is my bf who doesnt want me to go but the truth is, and she said if it was him would he not go. i said he wouldn't, because i know him too well and thats the reason i didnt even appeared to be bother by the fact he is going for exchange until everything is confirmed. The truth is no one is stopping anyone. Both of us just doesnt want to go especially now that we experienced the distance. Perhaps everyone love differently, but for us, the distance made us see that the simple act of being able to hold hands is so significant. I know exchange will definitely be an excited experience that i will not forget for the rest of my life, and i would definitely go for one before i was attached no matter how costly it is. However now, the me just doesnt want to spend half a year without seeing my stupid pui. Its not being noble, its not being stupid, neither am i being childish and unable to see the bigger picture. Its just me being me and deciding what is most important for me. To be honest, i dont even think that missing out on exchange will be a scarification that i made. I am not doing this for anyone, but thinking about where i will be really happy. Sometimes, you will just be amaze what one can do for love and how one can change because of it.
Day 13: What do you think is the hardest thing about distance?
I probably have dedicated a post talking about this topic. To be honest, its really everything, and yet just simply the absence of the person beside you. Its also you not being able to beside him. Each of us only can be thr by the words and worry for each other across the globe. :/
Been through a scary biomat quiz but shall not elaborate hahas. always been tempted to do 20 facts about me on insta that people keep tagging me in but whenever i wanted to do i will think its too much of an effort. although i will on and off have some facts about me in my mind. i have a complicated mind lolol. Again i am such a huge procrastinator and recently i realise i dislike inefficiency. Its actually a trait of capricorn and i used to think i dun posses it because i can be inefficient at time. Then i realise, i am just procratinating. My eldest sis also have this intolerant of inefficiency and mine is way mild. Then again i realise i am quite efficient in doing anything but studying D:
Anw so during dinner my friends and i were discussing about going exchange. Perhaps many would be surprise to know that i decided not to embark on one because i think its not worth it. Its definitely worth it for the experience no matter how little AUs i clear or no matter how much it cost. But its not worth it for the distance. Jaz thinks that is my bf who doesnt want me to go but the truth is, and she said if it was him would he not go. i said he wouldn't, because i know him too well and thats the reason i didnt even appeared to be bother by the fact he is going for exchange until everything is confirmed. The truth is no one is stopping anyone. Both of us just doesnt want to go especially now that we experienced the distance. Perhaps everyone love differently, but for us, the distance made us see that the simple act of being able to hold hands is so significant. I know exchange will definitely be an excited experience that i will not forget for the rest of my life, and i would definitely go for one before i was attached no matter how costly it is. However now, the me just doesnt want to spend half a year without seeing my stupid pui. Its not being noble, its not being stupid, neither am i being childish and unable to see the bigger picture. Its just me being me and deciding what is most important for me. To be honest, i dont even think that missing out on exchange will be a scarification that i made. I am not doing this for anyone, but thinking about where i will be really happy. Sometimes, you will just be amaze what one can do for love and how one can change because of it.
Day 13: What do you think is the hardest thing about distance?
I probably have dedicated a post talking about this topic. To be honest, its really everything, and yet just simply the absence of the person beside you. Its also you not being able to beside him. Each of us only can be thr by the words and worry for each other across the globe. :/
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