Hello guys!
since a long time since I started a post with such positivity no? hahahs
frankly speaking, I wouldn't exactly says I am in a good mood and all since I still have my fair share of worries blah blah..but today isn't one of the day that I am feeling exceptionally down either which is kinda rare these 2 weeks :)
anw just for an update..i didn't erm accept the offer from.. I don't know if I am making a right decision and all but the thing is. ytd I flipped a coin and at the instant when it landed, before even looking at which side it landed on, I got my answer. In fact, it was the first time I felt so strongly with regards to the result of a coin flipping. People always say if you don't know how to decide, flip a coin. you will get your answer when the coin is in a midair. the thing is I never understood until ytd when I was actually relieved upon seeing the results. Ofcourse, all the worries and discomfort set in after rationalising. However, I got my ans the instant the coin landed. I know I sounds very incompetent by saying how I am making a decision from the result of a coin flipping. But to be honest, it made me realise where my heart is actually leaning towards. I do admit that thr will be risk involve, in fact mega huge risk involved, but what done cant be undone. What I can do now is just to wait patiently and stop worrying about things that are out of my control.
In addition, I am actually really happy that I can go on trips without it interfering with sch lessons. I mean thr are other worries ie will the uni with the course I really want, accept me? But like I said, no point worrying about things that I hav no control over :)
Anw, I have been stalking these forum with regards to uni 2013/2014 intake. Sometimes I just cannot stand people doing so so so much more better than me worrying about things that I worry about too. Like seriously..if you guys are worrying then where do I stand? Actually it happened in sch sometimes too... externally I am like 'oh lets all worry together', but actually internally I am like 'seriously if you all are worrying then my extent should be bigger..hmm how about giving up? -.-'
Sorry if you guys are judging me I hav no words to explain myself for being like this. Somehow, I am just born the way that I cannot comprehend people who worry excessively. like really excessively. It makes me frustrated that people are not happy. lol weird girl I am uh.. ofcourse I do get over it and just accept them for who they are..and try to crack some jokes or analyse the situation etc along the way..
but eventually I just cant understand this excessiveness nor will I be able to..lol
on a side note, nxt Monday will be CO syf. Frankly speaking I feel kinda guilty that I haven't been going back and stuff. I don't feel useful when I go back either since I cant help them much because I am not pro to begin with. I can only probably provide them with eye power lol. In fact, I do feel slightly inferior when I goes back. It gives me the feeling like 'what is this not even pro person doing here and talking so much' lols. Nah, don't worry, not the extent that i will get sad over it but just would prefer to so called avoid it.. :X Whatever it is, I still would like to wish them all the best! I am sure they will do us proud :) Jiayousssssss!
oh oh! and i used to think it is kinda cool when people comes and read this blog..but recently when i see a number of increase in page views i am actually scared..lol.. Like i will start mapping stories in my mind like these increase in pg views are actually uni application processing people and they are actually judging me for every post that i posted. lols..yesss i care a lot about how people look and think of me actually..especially if it concerns my future. and yess i am someone who thinks too much hahahs. But mayb i should make my blog less searchable in search engines horr..hmmm
okayysss goodnight guys! and just to share something funny..my mum got so used to asking me why am i not sleeping yet that she even ask me this question at 10+ pm just now. My reaction was totally '?!' LOL. if you all know me then you all will understand my reaction. basically cos i am a late sleeper... unless you count falling asleep while studying then i am not. hahas
since a long time since I started a post with such positivity no? hahahs
frankly speaking, I wouldn't exactly says I am in a good mood and all since I still have my fair share of worries blah blah..but today isn't one of the day that I am feeling exceptionally down either which is kinda rare these 2 weeks :)
anw just for an update..i didn't erm accept the offer from.. I don't know if I am making a right decision and all but the thing is. ytd I flipped a coin and at the instant when it landed, before even looking at which side it landed on, I got my answer. In fact, it was the first time I felt so strongly with regards to the result of a coin flipping. People always say if you don't know how to decide, flip a coin. you will get your answer when the coin is in a midair. the thing is I never understood until ytd when I was actually relieved upon seeing the results. Ofcourse, all the worries and discomfort set in after rationalising. However, I got my ans the instant the coin landed. I know I sounds very incompetent by saying how I am making a decision from the result of a coin flipping. But to be honest, it made me realise where my heart is actually leaning towards. I do admit that thr will be risk involve, in fact mega huge risk involved, but what done cant be undone. What I can do now is just to wait patiently and stop worrying about things that are out of my control.
In addition, I am actually really happy that I can go on trips without it interfering with sch lessons. I mean thr are other worries ie will the uni with the course I really want, accept me? But like I said, no point worrying about things that I hav no control over :)
Anw, I have been stalking these forum with regards to uni 2013/2014 intake. Sometimes I just cannot stand people doing so so so much more better than me worrying about things that I worry about too. Like seriously..if you guys are worrying then where do I stand? Actually it happened in sch sometimes too... externally I am like 'oh lets all worry together', but actually internally I am like 'seriously if you all are worrying then my extent should be bigger..hmm how about giving up? -.-'
Sorry if you guys are judging me I hav no words to explain myself for being like this. Somehow, I am just born the way that I cannot comprehend people who worry excessively. like really excessively. It makes me frustrated that people are not happy. lol weird girl I am uh.. ofcourse I do get over it and just accept them for who they are..and try to crack some jokes or analyse the situation etc along the way..
but eventually I just cant understand this excessiveness nor will I be able to..lol
on a side note, nxt Monday will be CO syf. Frankly speaking I feel kinda guilty that I haven't been going back and stuff. I don't feel useful when I go back either since I cant help them much because I am not pro to begin with. I can only probably provide them with eye power lol. In fact, I do feel slightly inferior when I goes back. It gives me the feeling like 'what is this not even pro person doing here and talking so much' lols. Nah, don't worry, not the extent that i will get sad over it but just would prefer to so called avoid it.. :X Whatever it is, I still would like to wish them all the best! I am sure they will do us proud :) Jiayousssssss!
oh oh! and i used to think it is kinda cool when people comes and read this blog..but recently when i see a number of increase in page views i am actually scared..lol.. Like i will start mapping stories in my mind like these increase in pg views are actually uni application processing people and they are actually judging me for every post that i posted. lols..yesss i care a lot about how people look and think of me actually..especially if it concerns my future. and yess i am someone who thinks too much hahahs. But mayb i should make my blog less searchable in search engines horr..hmmm
okayysss goodnight guys! and just to share something funny..my mum got so used to asking me why am i not sleeping yet that she even ask me this question at 10+ pm just now. My reaction was totally '?!' LOL. if you all know me then you all will understand my reaction. basically cos i am a late sleeper... unless you count falling asleep while studying then i am not. hahas
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