One more application left - SUTD. couldn't complete it cos it refuses to let me move on to the next step unless I fill in my referee and stuff. the thing is I only saw it yesterday night so it was kind of last min. Hence, those who rejected, rejected. Those who haven't reply have not done so.

Ytd asked my teachers if they could help me write my appraisal and stuff. Well, I dunno if I should says thanks to those who rejected. The is because, the presence of them makes me extremely grateful to those who agreed. I know I sounded sarcastic and all now. But the truth is, I am not. Frankly speaking if it was the old me, I would. However, after all these years, I learnt to not have expectation. The higher my expectation, the greater my disappointment. I learnt to take all things with a pinch of salt and not expect anyone to do anything for you. Be it they are your friends, teachers or just hi-bye friends. I used to have great expectation of everything. For instance, I will expect my friends to celebrate my birthday for me, or I will expect to see results from the efforts to put in. Nevertheless, I was obviously faced with disappointment times and times again, thus shaping me into who I am today.

Today, the girl without expectation is happier. Simply because I am happy and if others do stuff for me and I wont be upset when they didn't. Although to tell the truth, sometimes I do feel disappointed why is it that when you needed help, those whom you think will didn't. D: Its especially so when you see double standard treatment. True that the conditions are different, but like what I saw on twitter someone tweeted, respect those who find time for you in their busy schedule, love those who never look at their schedule when you need them. It's time like this when you feel sad because you realised that, well, to put it simply - you are not important.

Really, you can hope and wish, but expect is the one that makes one upset.