Hello all
been all super super long time since I last updated my blog uhh.
its holiday and I am sooo busy that I need to record down in my calendar when to do what, to meet who. I really think cheer is taking up too much of my life and I need a life. actually I hav a mixed feeling towards cheerleading. On one hand, I love cheer, I love to stunt. I like it when I get the chance to learn new stunts, times when I managed to do lib for the first time or pop twist for the first time. In fact, I get disappointed when I dun get to stunt cos they are focusing on stronger flyers. But somehow, I always dreads to go cheer practices like I would think i rather be doing something else when the timing for cheer practices arrive. However, once I am thr, I feel happy when I stunt, though I also look forward to the end. I seriously dunno whats wrong with me. haiz
anw I am here cos I am moody and I seriously cannot stand it when people are asking you a favour and yet they gives you a tight deadline way before theirs. like hello? I am helping you to do something shouldn't you be more understanding and trust me? if you dun trust me then jolly well dun ask me to do it. I am obviously fine with it. If I say I will do it, then I will do it. And, plus the fact that seniority or position doesn't gives you any position to boss me around. yes, you can teach me, you can show concern but not calling the shots, simply because I am doing you a favour. Pls get this clear -.- I think its just me and my Capricorn traits that I dun like it when people ask you for help and they dun trust you. I am usually fine with anything but if I believe in something, I want it, I will do it. stubborn is me, but I dun care. Doubt me, then leave it.
okays mayb thr was a part of me being overly sensitive cos my back is hurting so much that it just makes my mood worse. Anw I realise I do have 公主病 sometimes that I get upset when people dun give me the attention when I want cos of all kind of reasons. but after a while guilt will hit me that people is not oblige to do anything for me and in what position am I to get upset.
Mega sigh.. sorry for the rambling the moment I update my blog after so long. I may appear easy going and always happy. but no one is perfect, I am a human and I do get mood swings. dun take advantage of me cos I seem like an easy target. Plus plus, esp since I am usually happy, when I get angsty or upset it seriously meant something is wrong.
been all super super long time since I last updated my blog uhh.
its holiday and I am sooo busy that I need to record down in my calendar when to do what, to meet who. I really think cheer is taking up too much of my life and I need a life. actually I hav a mixed feeling towards cheerleading. On one hand, I love cheer, I love to stunt. I like it when I get the chance to learn new stunts, times when I managed to do lib for the first time or pop twist for the first time. In fact, I get disappointed when I dun get to stunt cos they are focusing on stronger flyers. But somehow, I always dreads to go cheer practices like I would think i rather be doing something else when the timing for cheer practices arrive. However, once I am thr, I feel happy when I stunt, though I also look forward to the end. I seriously dunno whats wrong with me. haiz
anw I am here cos I am moody and I seriously cannot stand it when people are asking you a favour and yet they gives you a tight deadline way before theirs. like hello? I am helping you to do something shouldn't you be more understanding and trust me? if you dun trust me then jolly well dun ask me to do it. I am obviously fine with it. If I say I will do it, then I will do it. And, plus the fact that seniority or position doesn't gives you any position to boss me around. yes, you can teach me, you can show concern but not calling the shots, simply because I am doing you a favour. Pls get this clear -.- I think its just me and my Capricorn traits that I dun like it when people ask you for help and they dun trust you. I am usually fine with anything but if I believe in something, I want it, I will do it. stubborn is me, but I dun care. Doubt me, then leave it.
okays mayb thr was a part of me being overly sensitive cos my back is hurting so much that it just makes my mood worse. Anw I realise I do have 公主病 sometimes that I get upset when people dun give me the attention when I want cos of all kind of reasons. but after a while guilt will hit me that people is not oblige to do anything for me and in what position am I to get upset.
Mega sigh.. sorry for the rambling the moment I update my blog after so long. I may appear easy going and always happy. but no one is perfect, I am a human and I do get mood swings. dun take advantage of me cos I seem like an easy target. Plus plus, esp since I am usually happy, when I get angsty or upset it seriously meant something is wrong.
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