Finally met up with one of my oldest grp of friends and was so glad that we still have so many things to laugh about, gossip about. Was really afraid to diverge from our friendship because of some issues recently but was super happy that the saying old is gold is real. My weak heart can take anymore heartache now..

I have never forgotten my best friend in pri school whom i lost contact with. I think I only really got over the sadness and accept as it is when i was like 19? thats a total of 7 years.. so how long will i take to get over this one? :/

Much as to the fact that the sober me tells me somethings i just have to accept, sometimes things are just not meant to be. If the friendship is not fated to last, there is no point in forcing it. But my subconscious constantly missing the old days, constantly secretly wishing clock can turn back. Given another chance, i did still chose the same path, but given another choice i wish time would come to a standstill before it all happen. I guess sometimes we just hav to move on and accept that its all part and parcel of growing up. bu yao zai yi ni shi qu shen me, zhen xi ni yong you shen me. wo yong you hen duo.  something i learnt from selina during her speech at some show, to help me get through some of my negative thoughts late a night

random night with random thoughts but i guess jiu hou tu zhen yan is real? hahas