2016 has been a bitch
2016 has been a bitch, not just to me, but to many. My usual self will tell you that though it has been a bitch, things will get better, things will improve, it will be over in no time. But the me today, is not optimistic, and probably decided to stop deceiving myself with all these words.
2016 is a year of disappointment, sadness, anger, and unfairness. As much as i tell myself i take some i give some, no matter how much i console myself that its not as bad as i thought, or when something good happen and i think all will be better, guess what? NO. nothing is becoming better, its a year full of lies and disappointment.
I had never had a year that i wished that it will pass and i just want to get over with it. This is the year when i get the worst kind of sadness, the worst kind of stress, to handle alone. But its also the year i decided that its not pitiful to handle things alone, no one is to be blame for your own stuff. No one is responsible for your own emotions except yourself. It is the year when i suddenly see the good in my year 1 self, because afterall when you get too reliant, everyone gets tired.
2016 is also a year of learning, a year of discovering and a year of truth.
Everyone is tired of the shit, even I am tired myself. Sometimes i just want to cut off from the world, find somewhere quiet and stay for a few days or weeks or months. Uncontactable, no stress, no expectations. dont be surprise if one fine day i am uncontactable, dont worry i am safe, i just needed some peace.
In about a week time, 2016 will be over. But so will my hopes and expectations. My expectations that things will change for the better, my expectations about people and my hopes that all will be good in the new year. you know its the first time in my life when i learnt how to write 心寒...
But no worries, there will be a new me in 2017, a brand new self, one who knows how to protect myself, one who learn how to see the good in others and one that takes everything with a pinch of salt.
2016 is a year of disappointment, sadness, anger, and unfairness. As much as i tell myself i take some i give some, no matter how much i console myself that its not as bad as i thought, or when something good happen and i think all will be better, guess what? NO. nothing is becoming better, its a year full of lies and disappointment.
I had never had a year that i wished that it will pass and i just want to get over with it. This is the year when i get the worst kind of sadness, the worst kind of stress, to handle alone. But its also the year i decided that its not pitiful to handle things alone, no one is to be blame for your own stuff. No one is responsible for your own emotions except yourself. It is the year when i suddenly see the good in my year 1 self, because afterall when you get too reliant, everyone gets tired.
2016 is also a year of learning, a year of discovering and a year of truth.
Everyone is tired of the shit, even I am tired myself. Sometimes i just want to cut off from the world, find somewhere quiet and stay for a few days or weeks or months. Uncontactable, no stress, no expectations. dont be surprise if one fine day i am uncontactable, dont worry i am safe, i just needed some peace.
In about a week time, 2016 will be over. But so will my hopes and expectations. My expectations that things will change for the better, my expectations about people and my hopes that all will be good in the new year. you know its the first time in my life when i learnt how to write 心寒...
But no worries, there will be a new me in 2017, a brand new self, one who knows how to protect myself, one who learn how to see the good in others and one that takes everything with a pinch of salt.
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