A week to HO
Hello guys
Wahh it has been quite rare that i am not sleeping at 4am in the morning. A week to HO and suddenly i felt so scared.
I remembered how i first started cheer. The thought of cheerleading has been a very cool idea to me that since when i was in TJ, i wanted to join cheer. Went for the trial but i guess i wasnt picked because i wasnt pretty nor rah rah enough. After i came to Hall 1, despite nobody i knew was going to the trial, i just went there alone. Thankfully even though there was an overwhelming number of flyers last year, they kept everyone. The first qns i asked my senior was "can i just join for recreation?" No, was the ans i got because they said everyone trained for competition. Had tons of interest in it and didnt had much stunts during HO that yr because there were so many flyers better than me. I had to admit that i am not talented enough with body control and all those. But i had so much passion and took every opportunity given to me seriously.
This yr, even though i had much more stunts than last yr, i still didnt make it to top fly. Not sure if it was because of the stereotyping or was it because i just wasnt good enough. Yet, i really cherish every opportunity given when the routine was being planned. Until i dunno when, the whole training system changed and somehow people change too. I because pissed off and upset during cheer and i didnt had the extra passion for it. Sure stunting is still fun, but with the change of mood and stress, somehow i just wanted to get it over and done with.
It was only until today, i was watching hall 5 routine. Each of the flyers were smiling so happily, like not only during the routine, but when they were free stunting. I see so much joy in them that made me suddenly remember why i joined cheer in the first place.
A week to HO. I dunno how i will fair but it will probably be the end of my cheer journey. No matter what happens, am still thankful for the experience even though i probably dropped a liter of tears over it everytime during HO period.
Wahh it has been quite rare that i am not sleeping at 4am in the morning. A week to HO and suddenly i felt so scared.
I remembered how i first started cheer. The thought of cheerleading has been a very cool idea to me that since when i was in TJ, i wanted to join cheer. Went for the trial but i guess i wasnt picked because i wasnt pretty nor rah rah enough. After i came to Hall 1, despite nobody i knew was going to the trial, i just went there alone. Thankfully even though there was an overwhelming number of flyers last year, they kept everyone. The first qns i asked my senior was "can i just join for recreation?" No, was the ans i got because they said everyone trained for competition. Had tons of interest in it and didnt had much stunts during HO that yr because there were so many flyers better than me. I had to admit that i am not talented enough with body control and all those. But i had so much passion and took every opportunity given to me seriously.
This yr, even though i had much more stunts than last yr, i still didnt make it to top fly. Not sure if it was because of the stereotyping or was it because i just wasnt good enough. Yet, i really cherish every opportunity given when the routine was being planned. Until i dunno when, the whole training system changed and somehow people change too. I because pissed off and upset during cheer and i didnt had the extra passion for it. Sure stunting is still fun, but with the change of mood and stress, somehow i just wanted to get it over and done with.
It was only until today, i was watching hall 5 routine. Each of the flyers were smiling so happily, like not only during the routine, but when they were free stunting. I see so much joy in them that made me suddenly remember why i joined cheer in the first place.
A week to HO. I dunno how i will fair but it will probably be the end of my cheer journey. No matter what happens, am still thankful for the experience even though i probably dropped a liter of tears over it everytime during HO period.
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