Throughout all my life, i asked myself what i want to be in the future.

I underwent the standard mindset of a child..from doctor to lawyer to teacher etc etc. I rmb when i was in sec 4, i asked my friend what she wants to be in the future?she replied swiftly: doctor. I was pretty shock as i nv thought anyone would hav the courage to voice out their aspiration without the fear that they wont be able to achieve it, which is something i nv dare to do so. Seeing my shockness, she was puzzled.she asked: isnt it everyone dream to be a doctor?

Frankly speaking, there was a period of time i wanted to be. I dunno is it because i really like the job, or isit because of media influence, or simply because it is a job highly regarded by everyone. I really dont know. But no matter whats the reason, i wont be able to study medicine cos i dont take H2 biology.i think there will always be a part of me which feels that its very ke xi, a dream not fufilled. Just like how i couldnt enter cedar,nj etc. They are all dreams not fufilled.

Now, as a 18going19 years individual, i am faced with this question again- what is it that i want to be? For the first time in my life, i am seriously considering this question. I thought about it long and hard, and i came to a conclusion. Not a job specifically, but at least the kind of job i want.

I dont want to spend my life doing just a job. I want to do something meaningful, something that gives me satisfaction everyday. I dun wan to study courses like accountancy business etc i mean at least for myself, i dont derive satisfaction from seeing how the company i am working for fluorish nor do i feel extreme happiness from seeing the company i audited for get listed.

I want to do a job that enables me to feel accomplish after every task. Like eg mayb being a healthcare worker, terapist etc i dunno.

Though i am saying all these now..you all may just see me entering a course and doing a just another job in the future. But whatever it is..shall wait till my result is out before deciding anything. No point thinking so much now....