many people believe in superstitious stuff which may not be true. like making a wish when you drop an eyelash, making a wish when you see a shooting star, touch wood when you dont want something to come true, having a lucky colour and so on.
not surprisingly, i am one of them too.
i used to believed that i believe in these things because i really think they are true. but truefully, i realised that i believed in them because, at least, they give me some hope. they remind me of my wishes and when i follow these superstitous actions, i see a glimpse of light, that my wishes will come true. the future is unknown and scary when you encounter failure once and once again. everyone need hope and courage to move on and get up again after one fell down. believeing in all the superstitious stuff is at least, give me a sense of them.
i did really badly for prelims..not the usual bad bad but is the almost all fail kind of bad. even for subjects that i least expected it. i used to think that working hard, if not ensure me good results, at least guarantee improvement. but i was wrong. there comes to a point when even if you think you are working hard already, its still not enough. frankly speaking, i dunno what is considered working hard. does it simply means to study, or to study without a single form of leisure, or to study for 24 hours.
there is this girl in my class, really rich, quite pretty, being ferried to school, takes taxi home, and has super good results. she aims to and is probably going to be doctor (the most prestigious job in my eyes). and sometimes, i really wonder why all good things happen to one person. sometimes, i start to think why is life so unfair. perhaps you may see me as some spoilt brat, here gumbling about my terrible results when there are millions of people suffering from hunger, people who are suffering from family abuse etc. but here i am, complaining and complaining about this minor setback i had and not thankful for the other stuff i have. the truth is, i am. i am thankful for many things that happened to me. i am thankful for my family and friends and all that they have done. however, there is always something that everyone wants, and it changes from time to time. afterall, we are all humans and it is really difficult to satisfy our unlimited wants. perhaps some of the students taking A'lvl with me are purely wishing to pass, while others are aiming for scholarship. like how one of my friend was quite upset when she told me she probablycouldnt get a scholarship.
right now, i really want a pretty A level results slip. one that i am proud of.
but why isit this wish of mine seems so far and unattainable? they say you are not born a winner, you are not born a loser. you are what you make yourself. but why isit that i dont seem to see that? they say you can when you believe. but why isit that i believed once and once again but only to see the light getting dimmer and dimmer?
after june common test when i failed my chemistry (which i always do), i saw this quote online: you may never know what results come of your actions, but if you do nothing, there will be no result. i told myself to give myself another chance. whenever i got scared, i reminded myself using this quote. but once again, i failed. there is a limited to everyone tolerance. i think i reached mine.
my favourite quote since secondary 1 has been "success is not final, failure is not fatal" it's still is. i guess there's nothing else i can do but work hard.
this is a really demoralising post..one which i am not very fond of posting. but as i have said, i reached my tolerance level.. at least after letting it all out, i am feeling better. the only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary - vadal sasson; donalf kendall. i guess i just have to pick myself up, swipe off the dust and move one. afterall, i dunno what the future holds. let jiayous everyone
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not surprisingly, i am one of them too.
i used to believed that i believe in these things because i really think they are true. but truefully, i realised that i believed in them because, at least, they give me some hope. they remind me of my wishes and when i follow these superstitous actions, i see a glimpse of light, that my wishes will come true. the future is unknown and scary when you encounter failure once and once again. everyone need hope and courage to move on and get up again after one fell down. believeing in all the superstitious stuff is at least, give me a sense of them.
i did really badly for prelims..not the usual bad bad but is the almost all fail kind of bad. even for subjects that i least expected it. i used to think that working hard, if not ensure me good results, at least guarantee improvement. but i was wrong. there comes to a point when even if you think you are working hard already, its still not enough. frankly speaking, i dunno what is considered working hard. does it simply means to study, or to study without a single form of leisure, or to study for 24 hours.
there is this girl in my class, really rich, quite pretty, being ferried to school, takes taxi home, and has super good results. she aims to and is probably going to be doctor (the most prestigious job in my eyes). and sometimes, i really wonder why all good things happen to one person. sometimes, i start to think why is life so unfair. perhaps you may see me as some spoilt brat, here gumbling about my terrible results when there are millions of people suffering from hunger, people who are suffering from family abuse etc. but here i am, complaining and complaining about this minor setback i had and not thankful for the other stuff i have. the truth is, i am. i am thankful for many things that happened to me. i am thankful for my family and friends and all that they have done. however, there is always something that everyone wants, and it changes from time to time. afterall, we are all humans and it is really difficult to satisfy our unlimited wants. perhaps some of the students taking A'lvl with me are purely wishing to pass, while others are aiming for scholarship. like how one of my friend was quite upset when she told me she probablycouldnt get a scholarship.
right now, i really want a pretty A level results slip. one that i am proud of.
but why isit this wish of mine seems so far and unattainable? they say you are not born a winner, you are not born a loser. you are what you make yourself. but why isit that i dont seem to see that? they say you can when you believe. but why isit that i believed once and once again but only to see the light getting dimmer and dimmer?
after june common test when i failed my chemistry (which i always do), i saw this quote online: you may never know what results come of your actions, but if you do nothing, there will be no result. i told myself to give myself another chance. whenever i got scared, i reminded myself using this quote. but once again, i failed. there is a limited to everyone tolerance. i think i reached mine.
my favourite quote since secondary 1 has been "success is not final, failure is not fatal" it's still is. i guess there's nothing else i can do but work hard.
this is a really demoralising post..one which i am not very fond of posting. but as i have said, i reached my tolerance level.. at least after letting it all out, i am feeling better. the only place where success comes before work is in the dictionary - vadal sasson; donalf kendall. i guess i just have to pick myself up, swipe off the dust and move one. afterall, i dunno what the future holds. let jiayous everyone
i really love this video
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